Happy New Year

There are so many things I want to accomplish in 2017 •is what everyone says• but really... I want to make some positive changes or applications in my life.
Recently, my pastor had a message about doing more than your motivation and inspiration and turning those into applications. It really stuck with me. Last year at this time, I lost weight , I read my bible more, I stuck it out in my graduate program at UTA (and graduated in JUNE) and I cared more about sleeping and getting up early. These are things I am still passionate about, but I want to apply even more positivity into my life! 
It takes awhile to make healthy changes that will •stick•, but that is what I want to do. #makeitstick
#healthymind #healthybody #healthysoul
I haven't always done the right things or said the right things or even said things in the •kindest• way, but 2017 will be a year full of happiness, peace, love and JOY! #receiveit 
I want to wish everyone a HAPPY •new• YEAR, and I hope you can apply and accomplish all of your new goals you want to achieve.

xoxo, Blabbermouth

Update

Just so everyone is aware... It's 2016!

I haven't written in awhile. There's nothing new except:
1. I'm about to begin my last class in my journey to end my masters career! Thank you JESUS!
2. It's almost Summer, and I'm a teacher! Nuff said!

And the real reason I am here writing today...
It's no surprise to me that I try and live my life in a way that is acceptable and pure to me, BUT that is not the way a lot of my friends live theirs. No judgement :)
I'm a person that REALLY likes to have fun. That is evident, but I'm also a very guarded person! You have to be so careful these days. Lately I've been feeling myself wanting to try new things and be adventurous and talk to different people.. Which is awesome. Then I think, what if they don't "get me". Like what if they don't agree with these morals I hold so dear and the way I choose to live my life. Well... I've decided that it doesn't matter. If my beliefs aren't "for" someone... They're not "for" me.

I don't say these things to sound holy and righteous, but it needs to be known that I don't sleep around, and I don't date "Netflix and Chill" type people.

Gosh, I'm sounding pretentious, and I really don't want to sound that way. Maybe a picture of a meme with a girl riding through a sunny field of dandelions on her bike would place meaning to this post. Like it's saying ... Hey I like flowers and fun, but I'm not going to have sex with you after talking to you for an hour LOL. Too far? Maybe so!

God's Love is an Amazing adventure

I was asked tonight at church by a stranger to me (friend of our pastor) if I was an adventurous person. My mind started working REAL quick. Well, if you had asked me that last year I would have said, "No!" without a second thought, but now, in 2015 alone I have done so many things outside of my comfort zone and jumped so many hurdles. In January, I started my masters and began selling Younique makeup. As of last week, I am also working as an assistant for a long-time friend in her home office (All while having a full-time job as a teacher) ;). 

This is my adventure! Haha! Moving right along, I kind of answered, "Yeah..." with a question mark at the end. Then the man (I later found out that his name is Patrick and that he pastored) told me that my adventure was coming. This is so exciting for me. I knew it was from the Lord when he told me not to question it when it comes or write anything down. Ha! If you know me, you know I'm a planner! I have to weigh every pro and con in a situation or write down a schedule if it's something new. I laughed out loud when he said that! I felt like WOW! You really do know what you're talking about, huh!? 

I can't wait for my next adventure. I'm going to be patient and wait on the Lord to lead me to whatever His plan is. 

Thanks for reading! 

Xoxo, 

Blabbermouth 

I'm different

This time... I'm not going to worry about what it expected of me. I'm different. I'm going to say what's on my mind and not hold back.

I'm going to be the girl that I tell my best friend to be. I'm going to lift my self up like I do for my sisters. I will not change myself for a male specimen. That's what the problem is for me--- what used to be my problem anyway.

I'm not doing to be the girl that lost it over a boy. I will be someone my mother would be proud of-- and my dad too.

I saw myself being a little needy today when I noticed that everything wasn't going as planned. Then I thought about how boring life would be if I always got "my" way

Update on Trusting God

My last blog was written on my prayer for 2015 being to TRUST IN HIM! Lately I have been speaking in faith and believing in my heart that I can and WILL trust in The Lord. As I think about my life so far, I'm happy. I've been through a lot of mess, but I have been through way MORE joyous times! The way I see it is-- I'm a 24 (soon to be 25) lady/woman (weird words for me) living in the moment. Each week is so different for me. I just found out this week that I made an A in my first grad class, and I'll tell you I was thrilled. I worked my tail off for that A and prayed... A lot! 

I questioned if grad school at UTA was really for me right now, and now I know in my heart that this is the right time for this new step. My mind is aware of all the changes, and even though I'm tired during the five-week courses all the time, it's so worth it when I look back on my one week off! 

My next issue in my last post about trusting God was about my life. I think you know what I mean. Those questions from friends (not usually family) about where my life is headed. Even this week I've had so many "I have the perfect guy for you" or "Can I set you up?" situations. These days it's not that I don't to meet anyone, but like my best friend and I said to each other... It'll happen when it happens. I feel like God will take care of it and perfectly do it for me. 

I'm not opposed to these friends setting me up, but I have a long list of must haves ;). I'm not being that girl-- it's mostly God-related topics that I can't waver on... This time. My past relationships have not been God-driven from the beginning, so they were bound to fail. This time it won't fail because I won't be indulging something just to be "in a relationship on Facebook" or in general.  I have found recently that I took to many opinions of friends and acquaintances in my past relationships wayyyyy too much. 

One of my pastors always says that a relationship has two people in it. He didn't marry his wife, so she could go out and tell all of her friends all of their personal husband and wife business. I think of it like that --- I was getting too much advice from people that weren't my parents or other couples I look up to for God-based advice. 

I need to make sure that this time around-- that is what happens. That's it. 

I will leave you with Sam Hunt's "Take Your Time" lyrics. I love this song-- not as much the bar scene that they are in, but just the words, "I don't wanna take your heart. I just wanna take your time". It's perfectly said how in the beginning a lot of people fall in love and jump into bed together. Take your time and get to know each other. Listen to the other person and LEARN about them. That is the teacher coming out I'm sure, but I want to learn about my partner in life before I "fall in love" with them. If we have nothing in common and he's into killing people and hates teachers.. We may not be the right match! Hahaa! Didn't expect that? Did Ya? 

Thanks for reading :)

Xoxo,

Blabbermouth :) 

P.s. I never stop talking or blogging how I talk. If it pops into my brain, it'll probably be written down. 

P.p.s. I have started eating better and biking again... Wish me luck! I need to get back to making time for some exercise with all the crazy business in my life right now! God-family-school-exercise. Haha. 

Idk about a title... too bad!

I am trying to do my masters work right now, but as we all know I am horrible at getting things out of my head that NEED to be put into blog-form.

Today was a tough day at school. I had a student tell me that I would never have children. Now, to the child, this was a joke, and I am sure that his hand-written apology note was meaningful. For me, it made me think of my future even more. I know that God has a plan for me, but as I tearfully write this, I want more answers than God wants to give me at the moment. This is my prayer for 2015: TO TRUST IN HIM. I trust in Him to steer my vehicle, so I do not get in a crash, so what's my hard about TRUSTING HIM to steer my life to the right man and create a life. RIGHT? It really is that simple in the way my strong faith says to believe. However, I wonder if I need to do more to make my life happen... or if I even need a life right now outside of my career, going back to college, my apartment, family and friends. It is a lot!

I do not even know that I could make time for this guy anyway, but it would be nice to be chased. I am a big sucker for certain types of romance. I love getting good morning texts... and good afternoon and good evening LOL! That's embarrassing. I like pretending to be embarrassed more than I actually am probably. I love surprises MOST of the time. Anyway, back to my time. WELL, I have to study for class, I have to create lessons for MY class (school), and I have 500,000 other obligations/things I care about every week. I say I want to fall in love or whatever, but do I really have time?

He would probably be my weekend romance! :)

Back to the NO KIDS comment. I think it was super hard for me because I have the same thoughts sometimes. The kids just made me aware of my own insecurities. I am not someone that likes to face that... obviously, but it was probably good for me to notice!

NEW TOPIC: (yes my brain is a mystery that travels a mile a minute)
SHOULD I REALLY BE IN GRAD SCHOOL???????????????????
The answer to this question is I don't know. Hopefully I will find out more about this soon because I am dying to know.

For now, here's a selfie!

Thankful

My next blog post should be about being thankful. Thanksgiving is over, and we are  moving on to Christmas In a hurry! I never want to forget about Thanksgiving. I find that every now and then I'm sad at this time of year. I think about family that we have lost and things like that. BUT THEN I remember that they are in a better place, and I need to be thankful for the ones that are left. I love my family and friends that are like family more than they know. It's like being with my family is unbelievable sometimes. We are so close that it's scary thinking about adding someone to the mix. As I sat with my cousin, April this weekend/Holiday before my sisters arrived, I felt déjàvu A TON! It's like we do the same things a lot of the time through the holidays, but every year there is someone added or a little change. This year my older sister is pregnant along with some of our family and friends. It's weird to think that every holiday will be different from the time on. There will be extra spouses and babies and more. When I get married I will try my hardest to not be selfish, but I know I'll be sad not being around for every holiday with my family. 

Well that was depressing to even think about... Huh? 

Back to being thankful. :). I'm glad to have the best (biased) people in my life and am excited for future additions.. I think! 

Xoxo, 

Blabbermouth